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I want to live properly, and fully.

I feel like these days, I'm doing things half-heartedly, if not heartlessly. I do things cz it needs to get done, and I just happen to be there. I feel unfortunate, I feel unimpressed, I constantly get comments that I don't do my work properly like it's supposed to be done. Like there was something wrong with me. Something is off, something is not right. And I fell for it. I started to believe that I'm really stupid and incompetent, and slow and unreliable.  Working long hours, spending so much time on charting. I blame it on time, I blame it on age, I blame it on the geniuses minds that I was not born with.

I need to take a deep breath, and rethink.

I need to count my blessings.

I need to stop cursing all the things under the sun.

I need to say things that only need to be said.

I need to stop hurting the ones I love.

I need to expand my heart, and grow a lil vine of care.

I need to stop being so childish.

I need to stop believing that I can't do things, and learn. And have the will to learn.

I need to wake up, and get up.

Now.