Maju

Berbicara tentang pencinta maju (kemajuan), tiba-tiba aku terfikir apa makna maju di ruang cerebrum aku ini.

Adakah maju bermakna memiliki smartphone terkini?

Adakah maju bermakna mengetahui isu semasa? (kerana selalu terlihat situasi di mana seseorang iaitu aku bila tak mengambil tahu isu semasa di malaysia, ditempelak ibu rakan kerana menjadi katak di bawah tempurung.)

Adakah maju bermakna...sudah menempuhi fasa baru dalam hidup? Seperti berkahwin dan memiliki anak? (satu lagi isu yang hangat dalam golongan umur 20-an sepertiku)

Apakah Rasulullah saw dan para sahabat takmaju kerana tak memiliki smartphone? Oh, mereka lebih maju dari itu. Rasulullah dpt connection dengan Allah thru Jibril kan. Maju. Tersangat maju di luar kotak pemikiranku.

Habistu apa dia maju yang kau maksudkan?

Maju, bermaksud bergerak menuju ke arah kebaikan. Kebaikan yang hakiki. Smartphone or no smartphone.

Maju=perbaiki diri. Menuju cinta Ilahi.

Assalamualaykum.

P/s: Seharian kurang bercakap, maka kuota 25k perlu dihabiskan di medan maya. Hihi.

Syahadah

Kesaksian bukanlah sesuatu yang senang, remeh, atau main-main.

Bukan juga sesuatu yang sekadar di lisan, di bibir bertanam tebu manisnya kedengaran, tapi ia berbeban. Mudah, memang bukan.

Kesaksian yang terbitnya dari menerima fakta dengan jiwa, dan menyerahkan segala, atas dasar bahawasanya, kita ini datang dari Dia.

Berbuat suka hati, bukan jalan hidup, bukan tujuan, bukan jua penyelesaian.

Dan kerana kesaksian itu juga, setiap zarah di jasad ini seharusnya tergerak dan mewujudkan pembuktian, menampakkan betapa kita ini umat pencinta benar, pencinta maju, pencinta pengakhiran yang membahagiakan. Buktikan sekarang, tunjukkan, tonjolkan, nyatakan jangan kau simpan-simpan!

Dan pada menyedari hakikat pembuktian, ramai yang tersungkur dengan alasan aku takmahu hidup dalam kotak, aku belum puas bermain mainan, aku hanya insan yang lemah, dan masih terhenyak dek karat jahiliyyah.

Alasan seribu kali alasan, kau tak tahu bila kau mati dan akan bertemu hari, dimana mulut kau, berdusta sepicing pun dia tak reti. Malahan diam! Tangan kau yang berkata, aku main-main, kaki kau yang bersuara, aku terkinja-kinja, mata kau yang berteriak mengkantoikan kau ke jahannam bahawa kau suka melihat perkara tak patut. Mahu? Mahu begitu?

Sayangku,

Kotak ini luas, dan kau kerdil. Tapi kecil tak semesti lembik. Lihatlah semut, dan lebah. Alam terhampar penuh megah, lihatlah, dan carilah hikmah.

Sampai masa timer kau tamat, harapnya kau lega setelah keluar kotak garis masa. Lega kerana mendapat rahmatNya.

Ya Allah, ya Qawiyy, rahmati kami di akhir nanti, dan kuatkan jiwa kami di lembah ini.

The all-round cctv, in real time

When we're aware that we're constantly under surveillance, won't we feel compelled to do our best? And we have to make a move.

Okay, I'll study now. Subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahu akbar.


Photo: 
Surah ar-Ra'd, al-
Qur'anul Kareem.

Escapade

"I got my ticket on the long way round."

Because sometimes, you just need an outlet from you-dont-know-what. I dont know what's bugging me but I really felt bothered and depressed for the last few weeks. The only logical explaination is that I'm suffering from a bad emotional rollercoaster of PMS, and a really bad one I'm at the brink of questioning my mere existence.

I need people who can say I have seen you at your worst states and I love you anyway. I dont have many to be counted on that, I bet most just dont even care whether I'm alive or not. Truth be told I'm not that likable. I like to keep to myself at times and suddenly become hyperactive and talkative at another, so I guess the hard-to-predict nature just drove people away from me.

Anyhow, I just read on twitter this morning a quote by Yasmin Mogahed, "to be seen as good/beautiful from afar is easier than up close." Somehow it hit me hard cz I always feel that I dont treat my family well enough. I mean me and my siblings, me and my parents... And my mom and I especially. My mom has this way of talking that I easily feel that she's my friend, but sometimes I went overboard. I've listened to the way other people speak to their moms and it was nothing like the conversations between me and my ummi. They're more...how can I put it...reserved, and there's a loud tone of respect where you know, just by listening to it, that there's a line that you cannot cross. Its not that way between me and my ummi, we laughed and joked about everything and the way ummi told about her friends are like they're my friends too (but this is half true, I used to follow ummi around back home and most aunties knows me well anyway.) Maybe thats why my siblings felt that I'm way older than them, and they cant really relate to me in most things cz I spent time with ummi and makciks like a lot.

So, yeah. I need to improve myself on that.

So today I'll be scaling the Bangalore roads and malls, just to see the world. Maybe I need this. I'm really not the type to sit and stay in a place for too long anyway, and maybe that's why I feel that Davangere is driving me crazy. I'm my mother's daughter anyway, who couldnt stay still in one place more than three consecutive days lol.

So there! I used 'so' a lot.

Assalamualaykum and have a nice weekend!

Hilang

Berlari ke kota
Kerana unggas di hutan terlampau bingit
Sudah
Berhentilah teriakmu
Disesakkan bunyi hon dan sedu sedan sang pengemis jalanan

Sehari cuma yang kupinta
Pergilah segala kebingitanmu di telingaku
Aku bimbang ia sampai saja di hatiku
Terus melumpuhkan jasad dan kelenjar sedihku

Pergi dan nyah kau
Walaupun hanya sehari, cuma.

#NowReading Hard Times - Charles Dickens

"When from thy boiling store, thou shalt fill each jar brim full by-and-by, dost thou think that thou wilt always kill outright the robber Fancy lurking within--or sometimes only maim him and distort him!"

Such a harsh start for the first two chapters of Dicken's. It is one of the less popular volumes, Hard Times is. And it told about killing children imagination and desires in the second chapter. Though it sounds very depressing, I feel compelled to continue reading about Mr. Gradgrinds and his hard life.

All the excitement when I should study OBG now! I wish I can have the same hope with OBG, where I can still stay reading eventhough the start is all so boring.

Merdeka ke-56, Negaraku

Merdekakah kita?

Jika bahasa asing masih disanjung tinggi, bahasa sendiri dianggap kelas kedua?

Merdekakah kita?

Jika berjalan di tengah kota tas tangan dipeluk erat, takut-takut dikebas peragut penjahat?

Merdekakah kita?

Jika anak muda memuja-muja artis korea dan barat, industri seni negara dicemuh merempat?

Merdekakah kita?

Tika masih ramai meminta belas ihsan, anak sakit kos tak tertanggungkan, merdeka kewangan, oh hanya impian,

Merdekakah kita?

Kala ramai anak muda ramai melepak tak ketentuan, memadu asmara sehingga lahirnya anak zina, lantaran nafsu tak terkawalkan, akhirnya institusi pendidikan yang disalahkan pincang,

Merdekakah kita?
Merdekakah jiwa?
Merdekakah suara?
Merdekakah aliran tunai?
Merdekakah?

Dan untuk kau tahu apa erti merdeka itu--
Merdeka hanya pabila diri menjadi hamba,
Hamba Yang Esa dan tak tunduk pada selainnya.