Celaka

Yang paling celaka itu lidahku
Lidah seperti pedang, kau kata?
Apakah kemunduran ini?
Lidahku seperti sniper
Tepat ke jantung
Mati semuanya.

Yang kedua celaka itu sifat tak endahku
Bila orang datang padaku
Aku buat tak endah saja
Bila orang pergi dariku
Kutanyakan, mengapa?
Ah, celaka.

Yang terakhir celaka itu aku
Di hening pagi
Tiada yang lain yang aku hingarkan di ruang fikir
Selain kecelakaan hati. Dan jiwa.

Sambil aku memutarkan lagu-lagu sedih di pemain burukku.
Konon-konon mereka boleh membasuh
Dosa sniper dan sifat hati keringku ini

Kenapa, kau begini
Mencelakakan diri sendiri?

Tuhan, aku takut
Mati dalam celaka.

Pelokek

Ah, kau, si pelokek
Minta sedikit katanya sengkek
Minta segelas kau beri setitik
Minta sehati kau beri secobek

Ah, kau, si pelokek
Bagaimana kan kufahami fitrahmu
Jika bukan terpaksa kupinta padamu
Jika bukan tercuma kamu yang tahu
Kau fikir
Masih di sinikah jelamanya aku?

Ah, kau, si pelokek
Sedang yang kau lokekkan bukan kau yang empunya
Selamanya
Dan selamanya aku tak mengerti
Betapa salahnya prinsip dirinya

Ah, kau.

Hatiku semakin malam.

Dentum dentam di langit malam
Menggencarkan rasa suram
Di mana, kawan, di mana
Di mana, janjinya, di mana

Pantas pula masa berjalan ke waktu ini
Waktu aku seharusnya bersalam denganmu mengucapkan selamat jalan dan maju jaya
Seingat aku
Baru kelmarin kita bertemu dan bercanda
Baru kelmarin kita bersua dan bercerita

Dan waktu yang sepantasnya hadir ini
Seolah-olah tak pernah habis
Dengan aku yang menunggu, bersama secawan teh anganku, kubancuh untukmu
Dengan kau, yang tak muncul di depanku

Sedang hari semakin malam
Dentum makin dentam
Hati makin suram
Dan kita, seperti malam
Entah bila tibanya pagi
Pasti datang, tapi hati tak percaya lagi.

Aku tunggu kau di sini
Dengan hati yang semakin malam.

Cartoons, and other things.

I'm always fond of children shows and cartoons. Before this, I just genuinely and purely love them for the messages and all, but lately as I come to this age (hahaha what's this exclaiming that I'm exactly old or something? Okay sorry) I'm kinda surveying which cartoons and shows that are actually good and helps in educating young minds. For my future kids, see. Lol.

And I came across this cartoon named Dibo The Gift Dragon. It's really cute and the concept of the cartoon is so cool. All the creatures and plants in Cosy Land are made of wool/felt material, and you can see the stitches in everything. So Etsy-ish kinda cartoon. Pretty and artsy. And the main story is there's this dragon named Dibo who can grant his friends' wishes by a magic phrase 'Diding Boding Dibo Dibo Ding' and the gifts will come out of the dragon's tummy (which has a zipper on it.) And the song is quite catchy too. Lemme share the song witchu.

"Hello, hello, my name's Dibo

Here is something you should know

When you want just say this

Diding Boding Dibo Dibo Ding"

Catchy right? It also came with these dance moves. Lol.

But when I'm watching this, I'm kinda afraid of showing the cartoon to any toddler I know. I mean, we Muslims should always know that we have Allah The Almighty to rely on. And to ask for anything. Not some witty dragon with a catch phrase and a zippered belly.

And that concept should be taught first to these innocent minds. That they'll always have Allah. Even though when they have nothing nor anyone with them.

I wish some people could make a similar high quality cartoon like Dibo, to teach these young caliphs about this very core. Of course Allah can't be portrayed. But the educational message can be the major core concept. Actually not only for kids. But us adults too, who had might forgotten our purpose of being sent here on this Earth.

We had this explorace thingy with the muslimah sisters earlier, and there's one game which had you to pass a pingpong ball to your team mates using a plastic spoon. And after the game ended, we were asked- did you rely on Allah during the game, or did you rely on your skills and your team mates? Man. That hit me like a lightning. Especially when we just had discussed this particular ayat from surah Ali Imran: 190-191.

Indeed, in the creation of the heavens and the earth and the alternation of the night and the day are signs for those of understanding.

Who remember Allah while standing or sitting or [lying] on their sides and give thought to the creation of the heavens and the earth, [saying], "Our Lord, You did not create this aimlessly; exalted are You [above such a thing]; then protect us from the punishment of the Fire.

We should be reminded of Allah at all times. During whatever situation. Be it you're watching a cartoon or passing pingpong balls to your friends.

Cz He will always be there for us. :)

Kalah

Kalahkan saja mindaku, kantuk
Biarkan ia terus mengetuk
Pada pintu yang terselak rusuk.

Aku tak mampu lagi
Kerana kupunya pelbagai cita
Untuk esok.

Maka biarkan ketukan bertamu sepi.

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Senyap Yang Tenang

Sepatah dua katamu
Bahkan seribu tahun kebisuanmu pun-
Akan sentiasa bermakna
Di laman resah penuh belukar sesak ini.
Lapang terasa tanpa perlu bunyi-bunyi
Untuk mengumumkan keberadaan kamu.

0358
18-5-14

Kata, Berhenti Rayumu Padaku

Ianya sungguh aneh, bagaimana
Himpunan lagu dan bait-bait kata
Menyerang kotak minda tatkala seterpejamnya mata
Merayu-rayu untuk didendang sepenuh jiwa
Mengekang mimpi atau ruang gelap segenap infiniti untuk mengganti,
Menggerhanakan dunia ini.

Maka pergi saja dari lenaku
Dan biarkan aku hanyut
Ke seribu kebarangkalian.

Selamat malam, dunia yang tak berhenti lariannya.

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Bilik
18-5-14