Hello.
It's been ages. Yeah, I've aged alright. Whatever ideals I had some years back, most of em I've chucked away for good. We could never achieve perfection, yet we strive for it, cz insaan originates from Heaven, and only in Heaven things are at par to what we've all wanted.
Enough babbling.
It's another Johor Cuti Peristiwa Terkejut again. This time for ace-ing at Sukma Games.
There's 2 sides of a coin to it though.
The good part of it, is well, it's hari cuti alright. No need to wake up and straight away run my mind through the usual 3 things - making le beloved son's bekal, pack his clothes for the day and iron my own clothes.
But I have work due, admin stuff that need to be submitted today, so after running my thermomix for a quick nasi goreng, I've gotten on it, leaving H behind to cope with the little tyke. He managed to give him some breakfast (most of it went to the floor) and bathed him. In the middle I have to pick up the broom and sweep the horrors away. And continued with my work. Suddenly it's already 12pm.
I felt so tired of my constant running thoughts sometimes I felt like taking sumthin to shut it all up. I felt inadequate seeing all the other career woman juggling their life seamlessly. I told myself again and again that nobody's perfect and I'm doing the best I can but yeah, I'm exhausted.
There's a reason I'd rather not go through therapy if you'd suggested it to me now.
We'll see...
I've got to mop the floor now.
Later,
Keonce.
This had been nice.
