Kekopi

Kopi tiga cawan
Membekas di hati kawan
Kantuk tak hilang,
Gusar ku pandang,
Kertas-kertas penuh tulisan
Seperti memomokkan masa depan.

Kopi tiga cawan
Resah disaljukan.

Semoga esok masih kau ada,
Tiga cawan kopi di tepi meja.

Bunga Kuning di Dada Jalan

Bunga kuning di dada jalan
Akan menjadi saksi kita
Di remang petang ini.

Setiap kuntumnya merakam cerita
Tawa kita
Kecewa kita
Kesal kita kerana tertangguh bicara
Selama setahun sudah.

Dan di setiap kuningnya
Aku menghitung nasibku
Kerana kau
Masih menggelarkanku
Sahabatmu.

Siang

Di pagi-pagiku yang lewat
Diterangi sinar mentari di jendela
Mimpiku terjeda

Dalam pisat-pisat mata mencari angka di muka waktu
Antara percaya atau tidak
Lewat aku ditabrak kantuk

Seharusnya berhenti talian lewat ini
Kerana di sudut siring berbekas cawan kopi-
Kau katakan
Masa itu emas
Malahan kau lagi melayannya
Seperti anak ikan bilis
Terjepit di bawah himpunan pari.

Basah

Sudah lama tidak tertumpah di bumi
Mungkin tanah ini rindukan jatuhnya seorang aku
Mengenangkan aku yang dulu
Takkan semudah itu hapusnya dari ingatanku
Mencarik mentetas jahitan hatiku
Lantas aku tertarik pada mata kailmu

Tuhan
Masih adakah seorang aku di mataMu

Jingga

Remang senja begini
Rona jingga menyapa
Dibalut gulung bersama si merah jambu
Menerpa putih kertas belajarku
Sambil membisik

"Sudahkan saja
Hari mahu habis
Malam masih punya masa"

Dan tiba-tiba tajam sembilu menusuk kepala
Lalu kututup saja lembar-lembar ilmu
Dan tersenyum menatap
Rona jingga di petang yang malap.

Hidup di bawah lembayung As-Samad

(Input last usrah)

As-Samad: Tempat meminta segala sesuatu.

Boleh dikembangkan kepada tiga maksud utama:

1. Tempat meminta segala sesuatu
2. Matlamat
3. Kekal/Tak Tertakluk Pada Garis Masa

Sifat Allah yang satu ini, menyimpulkan matlamat hidup kita sebagai manusia, hanyalah Allah.

Semua benda dilakukan, hanya kerana Allah. Dirasakan emosinya, dicernakan makanannya, dikerahkan kudratnya, kerana Allah. Kerana Allah.

Dan menguatkan lagi ayat Hasbiyallah wa ni'mal wakil: cukuplah Allah sebagai penolong.

Manusia yang beriman dengan sifat As-Samad, inshaAllah gembira senantiasa. Sentiasa tahu, dalam apa pun susahnya, dalam apa pun senyumnya, ada Dia yang mendengar, melihat dan membela.

Sila terapkan dalam kehidupan harian yang makin hari makin tak termotivasi ya Khairunnisaku sayang.

:)

Back here, this and that

So I'm back in Davangere.

I guess 3 months at home really kinda make me feel like a different person. My senior told me that I look different, but maybe partly that was because I gained 2kgs at home. Which is an achievement unlocked for me, cz I rarely do so. Usually I lose weight when I'm at home, because the way my family eats are probably a bit healthier than the way I eat here in India. More veggies and soups, no coconut milk (usually) in our food. But yeah we love it that way.

Andddd another setback of being too long at home and soooo attached to my mom (I followed her everywhere. Even sending my baby siblings to school. She's the one who insists) made me super duper homesick when I get back here. I just realised yesterday that I've been camping inside my room for a straight 5 days. Wuht. -____-" And I still couldn't take Indian food. I guess it's the spices I'm not used to, my tastebuds still crave for soupy dishes.


By the way yesterday we have this small picnic halaqah thingy in front of our hostel. We discussed about Allah's characteristics in concern of food and water. Which is a really vast thing if you really ponder on it. Our lead was Surah 'Abasa, Ayat 17-32.

So we discussed those things and by the time we nearly finished, it was reaching Maghrib and lightning were dancing above our heads, leaving me very uncomfortable and a beautiful headache. If anything, I hate being outside during dusk. I SUPER HATE IT. What with the lightning too. People, next time don't put us in danger again, super dang please. I didn't caught the last points of our discussion cz I was busy praying that I wouldn't die today. The anxiety even increased cz just a week back there was news of some kid in a boarding school in Malaysia who died cz he was stroke by a lightning. You people don't read Malaysian papers, that's why you guys are so calm!!! Argh so frustrated. Next time I would've just run away, faking excuses like I need to pee or something. It really sets me off cz I have to deal with the headache throughout the night.

So that's it.

I just wanna do my exams and go home again.